Its the sort of the thing too personal to put on Facebook but needs to be put somewhere public, in the sense that it would be discoverable and maybe helpful to others, or even a future self.
I am trying. I swear. I do not quite get the things done that I mean to, to apply for those jobs or clean the room or what have you. But I am trying, and I am failing a little less each day. Sometimes, the lack of failure is only a little compared to the day before. . . But I will make it.
I have been meaning to write a blog for weeks now. And here it is.
Maybe the next one will be better. Hopefully, it won’t take weeks.
I survived. I did the North Ogden Cherry Days dressed up like Uncle Sam and sold a few of my guitars, and I did the Pleasant Grove July SummerBration and sold two more..
They were both brutal – didn’t meet anything near my goals for sales, I’m not used to being outside in the heat like that, and so much else. They were fun though, and I met some interesting folks and generally seems people think I am doing something good, something awesome.. Just apparently not necessarily something they want to buy into.
The business side still eludes me as my craftmanship has been confirmed. I make good stuff. The instruments play well, they sound nice, and they look ‘cute’ or ‘awesome’ or ‘great’.
I’ll figure the rest of the business stuff all out eventually, I suppose. Even being broke, I am still having a blast and I still have some faith I am onto something, bringing some small bit of wonder into the world.
So in that vein, I really do need to get on with keeping up with updates to this site, the facebook stuff, youtube videos, everything. Get the word out, this is what i do, its fun, you can do it too, lets make music together.
I have let too much go and too much time leave me the last 3 weeks, 4 weeks.. I am 2 weeks late on mailing out eBay items, I completely missed the Cajun Festival, and I am down over $600 in the budget.
I was able to buy some time with a small loan – $295 paid back at $75 a month for 6 months. I should have checked about that loan before going to the payday vultures but hindsight is like that…
The best I can do now is scrape through, and even to do that I have to pull my sorry ass away from the pity party and get to work… I am negative on funds because I overspent buying supplies. I have wasted time causing the overreach in expectations.
But – it is summer soon, there will be events to set up a booth at, there is soap and guitars to be made, and laughter to be had. There is hope, as there always is, so let the selfdoubt be crushed, as much as I have damaged my situation, I am still going, and I can grow from here and repay my debts and learn from my mistakes.
So, I was making guitars and canjos and things.. but due to some issues with lack of workspace and such, I have spent the past month selling stuff on eBay and getting into making handmade soap – hoping to be in production selling soap on Ebay and Etsy within a few weeks, already have two recipes mostly sorted out and just working out the kinks in the process.
Not sure what is going on with my sleep habits, but I have not made much progress at all on building product for OWC – I am upset. I am getting almost angry with myself, as time slips by and excuses mount.
In the end, what matters is what was accomplished, what was overcome. The excuses only fade away, leaving what-if’s, could’ve’s, and thoughts how issues could have been mitigated.
I had planned various work the past week and failed miserably to keep up with good sleep habits let alone do the work planned. I do not have any external deadlines and I have not taken any payments in advance so at least I am only disappointing myself, but it is still disappointing to be in this position.
I know I should be kind to myself, but I also need to remain firm, stick to the work and just make it happen. Its only been a week into this new year, I only started building instruments six months ago, only decided I’d do it as a business about 4 months ago now.
But I have wanted financial independence and personal success for a long time. I came up with the name OneWithCoolness and the original logo back in 7th grade, and despite never making any sales under this banner, I have always felt it was the way… Even when I forgot it, pushed it to the back of my mind and just worked whatever jobs and lived life.
But now is the time, I think. It is about time, and so I end this confession with resolve – I will get things done, I may even get some sold this month. I will put forth the effort and I will reap accordingly.
And I will look back at this slow start and only see a few bumbling steps on the much longer path.
I am way excited for this New Year. It is time to clear out cobwebs and bust hump and shine!
I built about a dozen various instruments as gifts for Christmas, and everyone was delighted to get them. I am getting pretty good at making these things, and now its just a matter of going into ‘production mode’.
Today is the 16th of October, 2017. Over the past summer I have been delighted to find such enjoyment in building and playing my own little guitar that I just want to expand on that and build and play all sorts of things.
Being at least somewhat practical, I am also looking to sell some of the guitars and other instruments I will build, perhaps I will be able to move on from my day job in a year or three? It would be a tall order, they pay and treat me very well but I really do just want to design and create and play and build.
Well, Just getting the old website into shape. Good things to come soon.